When it rains, it pours.

 It's true for everyone, right, when the weather gets bad, it really gets bad, but there will be an end to it all.

In May I had something severely traumatic happen to me and i'm sure you're sitting there saying "Samantha, are you going to tell us, or just be vague?", we'll i'm going to be vague, the people closest to me know and that's all I'm leaving it to. I can tell you though, the person who hurt me, will never see the light of day. So, if you're wondering the severity of it, there you go.

I have been trying to deal with that, I have nightmares at night about it still and I haven't been to my therapist yet but i'm sure that's something I need to explore soon.

Aug 11 I went to the doctor for some terrible ear and jaw pain, I got an oral antibiotic and went a couple of days on that and then one night i was in unbearable pain and went to the ER. I ended up getting ear drop antibiotics.

Ok, so i'm on that and I get better for a week and then BAM! It's all back again. Here I am walking into the doctors office getting another round of oral and ear drop antibiotics... Still. In. Pain. Today, I'm running a fever, feeling really unwell and I haven't had a bowel movement in nearly 10 TEN days. I'm not sure if you know how painful that is? PAINFUL. not as painful as swimmer's ear though, holy. shit. Swimmers ear is no joke, I am on 1 full month of dealing with this pain and dizziness. I've been a disaster.

OH, oh, then this happens, I find a FLEA on my cat! I freak out, purchase nearly $250 supplies (flea collars, spray, flea comb), spraying my house like wild, combing the cats, checking them every waking moment. Panicking about fleas, my jaw and ear are hurting so bad, nightmares, annoyed with work, waiting on financial aid to see if I can start school in the Spring...The storm is almost over, I'm sure of it.

oh, and I miss Walter. long distance really sucks and I miss him terribly.