Organized Chaos

 I started a new job with NiSource on Oct 9th, it's been a dream of a job too. I'm making double what I made at FedEx, I work 3 days a week from home, 2 days a week in the office, which is beautiful. But, here's the thing, I miss FedEx. Maybe not FedEx, but the impact I made, the accomplishments, the chaos. 

 I miss the few lasting friendships I made there - I miss BSing with them in the office and all the drama that was FedEx Ground. The fun drama, the grilling food for people, handing out goodies, helping people create a career, onboarding new PHs, I may have only touched a couple of lives but that made me so happy. Now, I'm not saying I don't make a difference, but it's completely different. I'm in damage prevention compliance, I help make sure homes don't blow up and risers are replaced in a timely and accurate fashion. That's great, I'm proud of that, there's just a lot of adjustment.

I don't know anyone, well, other than my exhusband who also works for them, but he's a completely different department and location. There isn't that camaraderie that FedEx had. I don't feel at "home" yet, maybe one day, but that day isn't right now. Maybe that won't ever happen. I love the work from home aspect but also miss having a team. It's just me.

This has been a very tough transition for me, I don't want to come off as complaining or whining about my new position because I am INCREDIBLY grateful for this job. Like, it's been life changing for Brady and I. I am so proud of myself for getting here. I just miss the silly chaos. I don't miss working 6-7 days a week during peak, I don't miss the disrespect, I don't miss the trauma someone there caused me, I don't miss any of that. There was a reason I needed to leave and I am so happy I got out.

I have a meeting with the SVP & Chief HR Officer in January. I sent her my engagment history with FedEx and she wants to have a meeting to go over some engagement opportunities I could bring to the table at the organization, that in itself is really exciting. 

It's like there is so much going on, but not, does that even make sense?

When I worked for the city for that short time, I met Lynn, the HR Director. She made a huge impact on my life. She was the first woman, in business, who helped me feel at peace in such a toxic environment. Unless you are heavily interested in politics, come from that background or enjoy that type of drama, please, stay far away. I literally cried 3/5 days leaving that place. On all that is holy, I am SO HAPPY her and I are no longer there and on to bigger and better things.